I’m sorry I haven’t posted in awhile. I’ve been upset and thinking.
Several friends of mine are going through a divorce or have gone though a divorce and are now raising their children pretty much on their own.
The things they go through have me upset. I get angry! I’ve talked to God a lot about them and I want things better for my friends. I have cried for them but not in front of them. I have tried not to rant and express a lot of my anger in front of them. I have tried to listen well. I have no advice for them. I don’t know what I would do if I was in their shoes. I don’t think I would be handling these situations with as much grace and integrity as they do.
I just have to remind myself that Satan is their attacker. Job chapters 1 and 2 make that clear. Jesus prayed for their protection from Satan. I can do the same. I am still mad for them. I love them.
My bible study group has decided to study out Job and I’m so grateful. I have focused on chapter 1 and 2 this week and had such an “oh wow” moment!
… the angels came to present themselves before the Lord, and Satan also came with them. The Lord said to Satan, “Where have you come from?” Satan answered the Lord, “From roaming throughout the earth, going back and forth on it.”
This is at the beginning of both chapters. God is allowing us behind the scenes moment here and it’s pretty revealing.
First, Satan is not God. No where near! Whereas God can be anywhere and everywhere and is outside of time Satan is not. Satan is an opposing force, his name literally means adversary, but he can only roam back and forth on the earth. Satan is still a fallen angel and not God.
Second, the angels came and presented themselves to God. No one spoke unless God spoke to them first. Angels are subjected to God. Not to be worshiped but to worship.
One of the women in our study brought forth an interesting point as well. God knew what Satan had been doing but He still asks “Where have you come from?”. God is reminding Satan of his place. Fallen. God is still supreme.
God is still supreme!
Honestly, there are days that I feel like I’ve just had enough. Usually after dealing with 3 boys and their attitudes and behaviors, bills we have just enough money to cover, my husband having a bad day, and trying to not make remarks back to strangers who feel comfortable talking to me about things I wish not to discuss with them. I know we all have those days.
In 1 Kings 19 Elijah voiced what I have felt so many times. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.” Then he lay down under the bush and fell asleep.
I’ve said the same thing myself but then I find myself feeling guilty for feeling this way. Now granted I haven’t had people chasing me down to try and kill me and that is what makes me feel so guilty. Shouldn’t I be able to handle more? Do more? But watching Elijah I notice that he didn’t feel guilty. And God didn’t punish him for being at the end of his rope.
God made Himself known. God met Elijah’s needs and then talked with him. Elijah was honest with how he was feeling. He didn’t feel sorry for himself, he didn’t try and pretend he was stronger than he was, and he didn’t try to blame or harass. It didn’t bother God.
After meeting Elijah’s immediate needs and after showing Himself to Elijah, he led Elijah to Elisha. Elisha would be his helper.
God does the same for us. In the midst of my trouble, if I look up long enough, talk to God, I too will find my needs being met by God. I too will have someone come alongside me to strengthen me and take over some of my responsibilities if I allow them.