Over the past few days I have been immersed in Deborah’s life. You can find her in Judges 4 and 5. She is pretty amazing and I know that I had , and still have, so much to learn from her.

For myself there are several things about this woman. The bible says she was a prophetess. She was listening to God and He was talking to her. But my attention was her heart for the nation that she was leading. In her song, Judges 5, she declares that ‘arose a mother in Israel’ and ‘my heart is with Israel’s princes, with the willing volunteers among the people’. She loved these people, deeply loved and nurtured them. She was faithful to God and she was willing to defend her nation. She went into battle, willingly, with dear Barak. She was a woman of strength.

But that strength didn’t come from her. That kind of strength can only come from God. In verse 31 of chapter 5 it reads “..O Lord, But may they who love you be like the sun when it rises in its strength’. And that kind of strength can only come from testing. And testing is intended to determine the quality or performance of that being tested. To judge the reliability and strength of that being tested. In Exodus 16:4 God tests to see if we will follow His instructions, Exodus 20:20 even tells us to not be afraid of testing because the fear of God will keep us from sinning. Deut 8:2 to know what is in our hearts. Testing will strengthen us!

God even talks about testing His will, Romans 12:2, so that we will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – His good, pleasing and perfect will. God wants us to know that He is reliable, that His will for us is perfect and He wants us to be secure in that.

How we handle stressful times in our life can allow us to shine, Judges 5:31, like the sun when it rises in its strength! In the times of great stress, in the times of suffering, God want us to test and be tested so that those times reveal to us that His glory, His power and His wisdom. He has given us the Bible as our weights and measure. Through these words we know His truth.

And we can be strong Women of God through out our lives! Through the strength we receive from God we can then love and encourage others to do wonderful things in the strength they have. Deborah could of left Barak and told him to man up but she didn’t. She allowed Barak to lean on her and use her strength to do what he needed to do.

I pray to handle my stressful moments so that and walk closer with God everyday. I pray to have a love, a love like a mother, for all of God’s people.



PRAISE REPORT!!! Our God Heals!

My middle child has had a perforated eardrum for 3 1/2 years now. We’ve been told that he will have to go in for surgery when he is around 12 or 13 to see if they can fix it because the hole was so big. Unfortunately because of there wasn’t much they could do and we were told to wait until he was old enough for the surgery.

We decided to pray that God would heal it before then and then prayed occasionally when we remember to. Our son went in for regular visits and we were told the same thing each visit “wait until he was old enough for surgery, no it won’t heal by itself”.

Today during a routine visit we found out that, within the past 6 months, his perforated eardrum, it is healed! Praise God!

In God’s time, which is the perfect time, when you might be least expecting it, God heals!


God is amazing! All day today I have been in wonder just thinking about scripture I read with my boys during breakfast. James 1:18 ‘He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of first fruits of all he created. NIV In the Message it states that ‘He brought us to life using the true Word, showing us off as the crown of all his creatures’.

This brings back the images and feelings I had when I was pregnant with my oldest son. As my tummy grew and I became more aware of my child’s movements I became aware that I would have to go through labor. The first few seconds of this thought brought on a wave of fear but I just reminded myself that thousands of women before me gave birth and I would too. I would give birth. And then when I held my son in my arms, I felt so full that I just wanted to show him off. My love for this child was more than anything I had ever known before.

But God. He had a choice. He could of left me dead in my sin. Not knowing the truth of Jesus. But in all of His glory, at the right time, He showed me His kindness which lead me to repentance. His love for me is more than anything I have ever known, more than my mind can comprehend. God is amazing!

health and healing

Jeremiah 33:6 ‘Behold, I will bring to it health and healing, and I will heal them and reveal to them abundance of prosperity and security’ Jer. 33:3 ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’

I’ve been having issues with my health ever since I became impatient and moved to a new doctor. My previous doctor insisted I learn about my thyroid and Hashimoto’s. My previous doctor insisted I listen to my body and how I felt. My previous doctor insisted that I take control of my health with diet and knowledge. Then he left his practice. After a few months I felt I needed a new doctor. I chose not to wait on my previous doctor to start a new practice. Instead I chose a doctor who promised to do all of the above for me. I liked that, not taking responsibility. I was happy until I started feeling bad. I no longer felt healthy and I no longer felt healed. I gave up being accountable for my own wellbeing. When I complained to her I inconvenienced her. She had a fix for me that she had for everyone else but it wasn’t working for me. She would let me go as a patient if I wouldn’t just take the pill and realize it was all in my mind. I had no choice. I called out to God.

When I called out to God, 4 months later, He listened. He brought me back to where He wanted me. He brought me back to my previous doctor. And he sat there and reminded me that he was only a tool for me to regain my health. I was amazed! Within 24hours of crying out to God He delivered! He delivered hope!

Its not going to be easy. I had been listening to someone else to tell me what I needed to do to be healthy. I was letting someone else make these decisions for me and I suffered. I suffered because I wanted to take the easy way out and let someone else be responsible for what I needed to be responsible for. Instead, I need to be listening to God and to my body. There is wisdom in that. God says that he will tell me great and unsearchable things. He will tell me what I need to do to regain my health and it’s ok if it doesn’t look like what other people are doing. It’s for me.

near God

“But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.” Psalm 73:28 NIV

I have been having health issues that have left me tired and not feeling good. I know my husband is tired of me not feeling well and I feel bad that my children have had to miss some events. I feel generally sick most days but some days I feel worse than others.

I love this verse because it is good to be near God. He knows how bad I’m feeling. He knows how badly I just want to cry, stay in bed. I can cry out to Him. He hears my every word and responds. 

I can find refuge in Him. I can find safety in Him. I can bring my pain, my emotion, all of me and know that my God understands. I can lay it all before Him and He sees, sees me. I know that Jesus weeps with me and has compassion for me.  It is good to be near God.


I’m almost done reading through Joshua today. And it strikes me “So be very careful to love the Lord your God” Joshua 23:11. Then I search careful through the scriptures and see that God says a lot about being careful. Careful; cautious, heedful, alert, attentive, watchful, vigilant, wary, on guard, deliberate.

I’m reminded to be very careful to love the Lord my God (Josh 23:11), careful not sacrifice anywhere I please (Deut 12:13), careful how I live (Eph 5:15), careful to obey (Lev 26:3), give careful thought (Prov 4:26), to be a careful listener (Prov 21:28), careful attention (Prov 27:23), careful thoughts to my ways (Hag 1:7), careful to what is right (Rom 12:17), careful to not fall (1 Corin 10:12). Be careful!

God knows. He knows that we are going to have many pitfalls. He knows that Satan is just waiting for us. He knows I can be independent. So he warns me to be very careful. He warns me in Ephesians 5:15 to be very careful, then, how I live – not as unwise but as wise.

I don’t know about you but my wise does not always align with God unless I am prayer. Both intentional and spontaneous prayer. I need to be in prayer. Only then can I be assured that I am aligning myself up with God. Allowing God to guide my directions by both being in His word and by prayer.

Love Covers

1 Peter 4:8 “Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins.”

Earlier this week I had an unpleasant confrontation with a woman. I felt attacked, I raised my voice to make a point and walked away. I walked away in anger and hurt. I was ready to let this hurt take a place in my heart with the rest of my hurts but then something unexpected happen. A few days later when she saw me again and I was getting ready to walk in the other direction, she apologized. But it wasn’t just a brief brush off. It was real and something inside me changed.

She was earnest, she didn’t make excuses like I was having a bad day and took it out on you or any other excuse. She came to me and said she was wrong, why she was wrong and asked if I would please forgive her. I know she was apologizing to be biblical, I’ve seen it before, but in that moment I saw her heart before Jesus. She was doing this to be right with Him. And because of her love for Him I saw her love for me. At that moment I mattered to her and she showed it through her love for Christ.

And that apology, her authentic apology to me, covered a multitude of sins that I had been holding in my heart. When she said “please forgive me”, that place in my heart where I hide things, well that opened the door for other hurts to be covered. Other times when I didn’t matter to someone, other times when legalism and religion hurt, those time, they were covered and all because Jesus touched me through her and let me know He sees, He cares.